Every time I sit down to write an ‘about’ page, I’m confused about where to start. Do I talk about my beginnings as a writer, or how this blog started? Should I start my story from my birth, or should I go back to my mother’s paternal grandfather and my father’s maternal grandfather’s lives, whose love for reading and writing I inherited, respectively?
An ‘about’ page talks about the person or the blog. In this case, the blog is named after it’s writer – me – but even that isn’t an easy place to start writing. It was so difficult to come up with the name Cup of Contradictions after I decided to change the identity of this blog, which was originally called Scribblings of a Storyteller. I wanted a name to represent me because I consider this a personal blog, though I occasionally write about things that do not concern or affect me in any way. In the end, I settled on Cup of Contradictions. You can read the story about how I chose that name here.
As for me – where do I start describing myself? I have so many identities – daughter, sister, writer, blogger, friend, zero-waster… How do I choose one? There are too many sides of me and who I am at a given moment depends on who you are. I don’t deliberately try to be someone I’m not – I don’t even know how that can be done – but the appropriate role takes over.
I’m honest if not anything else. Of course I have lied, and I will lie. We all do. But I also have a very weird sense of morality. I may lie that I didn’t break the glass covering the shelf, but if I notice that my teacher has wrongly given me an extra mark or two, I point it out and have it deducted immediately. Broken glasses won’t harm my future; a delusion about how good I’m doing definitely will. And so I write here with honesty. I don’t care what that speaks about me as a person. My hands have become so used to it that I catch myself writing something that’s not true and delete it immediately. It has become an unconscious habit, and I’m glad of it. Expect nothing but the truth here.
I am so much more than honest; I can’t use a few simple terms to define myself, but among others, honesty stands out the most. Maybe that’s why I’m honestly praising myself and I’m not ashamed about it. Why not? Why shouldn’t we be proud of our good qualities? I’m not a great person, maybe not even good. But I know where I need to improve and I’m trying.
What else? I’m a huge fan of Brandon Sanderson’s The Stormlight Archive. The official quiz on his website put me in the Truthwatcher Order of Knights Radiant. I love reading books, pencil sketching (I’m currently teaching myself figure drawing), listening to music, blogging, watching TED-Ed, and looking at other people’s art. Also, cats, dogs, and a good laugh.
I’m trying to live as sustainably as possible. If nothing else will, anxiety about climate change will definitely make me cry and be restless for hours at a time. Restless until I’ve found some way of doing my bit for the world. Restless until I find proof that things are still manageable. Restless until I am assured that there is still hope.
The same goes for politics. I’m trying to make kindness a habit. To make someone’s day better, in whatever way possible, by listening, by amplifying voices that need to be heard. I can do way more, I know, and I’m trying to make progress whenever possible.
I also love writing. I’ve been writing since fourth grade, though I only ever took it up seriously in 2016, when I started I my three-year writing streak. I broke it last September, but I’m trying to get back into the habit again. I’ve been blogging since 2015, and was published in Flash Fiction Magazine and Every Day Fiction in 2017. I’ve also been published on Submittable’s Blog for Creatives. I finished school in April 2018, stayed home for a year, then started my Bachelor’s in Applied Psychology in 2019.
These days I’m trying to start another writing streak, exploring science-fiction and fantasy writing, listening to dozens of audiobooks and podcasts, and trying to work on myself by using strong fictional women as my role models. When I’m not wasting my time, I’m trying to learn to cook as well as my mother does. Which is, well, rarely.
Thanks for stopping by and reading this detailed “about me” essay they gave us in homework in primary school. You can go through the pages of the blog on the menu bar above or explore the archives.
If you want to get in touch, just email me at firstname.lastname@example.org . I’d love to hear from you!